Day 2 Thailand

Woke up, no rain. Breakfast at chok dee restaurant, in front of the hostel, had Pad Thai wrapped with omelet. then it starts to pour real hard. Got our fare to Railey Beach for 130B pp. Tout asked for 150B but we told him, some boatman at the pier can take us for 130B, so we got it. 5 of us went cause Eun A's bro don't wanna go out in the rain.  On the boat, it started to rain even harder. There were water everywhere, under us, from the side and the front. Rain taste salty at some point. Amanda got sick as the waves got bigger. We were bobbing up and down, it's like being on an episode of the National Geographic's Deadliest Catch! After what lasted like an eternity of wave riding, we arrived at Railey East. It's surrounded by mangrove trees and spectacular cliffs. There's a path which leads us straight to Railey West, to where the beach is.  Got scammed today for our fare to the bus station. Paid double then the supposed 20B per person. 

I can still feel..

This is hard to believe, but as for before last weekend, I never knew that I could care and love someone. I experience forgiveness and increase my knowledge about chastity as a way of life. I fall, and yet, He, in all his wisdom and grace, lifted me and assure me that I am ok, and there is nothing that I do that cannot be forgiven. For an instant, the burden and guilt that I'm carrying with me was instantly lifted, and I feel like a new whole being. It's not what I know anymore, but what I felt.
I began to understand now that, when I'm attracted to someone, I'm attracted to God, who I see in her, which makes her attractive. Sometimes, I think God made her, just to show off. There is just something about her that makes her special.
However, I felt that it's hard for her to open up. It's like she's resisting to get to know someone or be close with someone. There's some hurt or betrayal she experience which I think makes her vary in the idea of forming friendships. She's friendly, but didn't talk much. She could be introverted but she's not that way when she's with close friends. I hope that we'll be good friends one day.